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New York, NY, United States
An inquisitive soul in search of every reason to smile on a daily basis. At times a true wanderer. I travel this journey with my beautiful wife Jessica; I love everything from rain to rainbows ; sunrise to sunsets; downward dog to plank. :) I seek natural wellness and healing through music; yoga; meditation; aromatherapy a good book, a creative wardrobe, and art. The exchange of uplifting words and actions is invaluable. We are beyond the beauty we see, the decisions we make and the laughter we share. Ohm~

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Blizzarddddd- BLurssss

Dec 26th, 2010.... Way to end the year in a BAM! with 26 inches of snow in certain parts of NJ/NY... About half of that by our home... But still as crazyyyyyyy
The good part: I got an extra day off work./// the downside: I now have to walk through slush and it takes twice as long to get anywhere....
Gotta love the many seasons of the East Coast~
A very bright and white holiday is how this year will go off... always in style... I wonder if many will still gather in Times Square to stand in inches of slush for hours waiting for the ball to drop...
Ill be in a beautiful red dress; cozy; indoors; enjoying some bubbly; good food; beautiful family and a wonderful couple celebrating their union to one another... So excited!

Monday, December 20, 2010

All Things Wonderful



Its a short week!! three more days of work and then 3 wonderful days of fun and relaxation for the holiday weekend... Can't hardly wait!
Tonight I'm working on setting up a nice workout routine for baby... some power yoga moves followed by a little resistance training. I hope this doesn't turn ugly! She gets defensive when I'm telling her what to do and pushing her a little over her limit.. I just hope I don't end up with a black eye lmao.

This past weekend was spent visiting my family... and in a short visit I learned so much...
first about honesty,,, second about the value of open communication. And i feel so grateful to have that with my partner. My brother and his wife of 10 yrs are divorcing (by his choice).. because he is unhappy...
and now recently began seeing someone new.. who makes him all giggly and high schoolish....

And everyone is pretty upset with him...  because I guess they feel eventhough he isnt happy or in love anymore; that you should do whatever it takes to make your marriage work.. I dont quite agree... Yes; U take vows... and YES you should try to make things work.. but when there is no more trying left... then what?
Just stay to avoid hurting the other person??... I think that hurts more.
The one place where I think he went a little wrong was in not telling her earlier  just how unhappy he was...
He was not HONEST about the transitions/change of heart he was going through... so how could she have known what to do to try and better the situation, if anything?

Its heartbreaking to watch two ppl you've only known together now lead separate lives; and its scary as a newlywed to see that so many marriages fail after a few yrs.. die out, bore.. whatever the reasons behind it... 
But I guess in life; as in love, the one thing u have full control over is being open, honest and clear about what it is you want... expect.. hope for... are happy with... And I think in order to make sure both partners are getting what they desire; they need to verbalize it.. No one is PERFECT; nor PSYCHIC,,, and no two ppl ever love the same. So speak up! Its not easy.. and  It may cause some discomfort now; BUT it can save you tons of heartbreak later...

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Peace

There's this strange feeling flowing through me right this moment...
Its not old; not new; not unknown
But everytime is different...
Peace....
Of mind; of body, of soul....
At peace with myself, At peace with my world... 
Its interesting how you can be broken into pieces one day...
And the next is like an opportunity for renewal.. do you take advantage of this blessing?

Last nights experience at Yoga To The People was amazingg... Its busy, its hectic and its chaotic while everyone is leaving class/ preparing for the new one... There's a collision of energy,, the jittery one coming in and the calm one getting out...
Its almost like leaving a cave after years of being in silence and darkness and being exposed to 
Times Square's alive, awakened, almost Manic energy. But the thing is when you are so at peace;
Its hard to even feel affected by the chaos that surrounds you. And that's exactly how I felt,, and still feel this wonderful Thursday morning,
Like i found a balance i was lacking all week.

Im grateful for the phone calls from my mom asking how Im feeling; Im grateful for my mother-in-laws emails telling me she misses us... Im grateful for the delicious dinner my wife made me; Im grateful for the warmth she has found in her North Face ;)
 Im grateful for the way she feels safe in my arms and falls silently asleep knowing nothing bad can ever come of this Peace we feel around each other.

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Another Hump Day

Wednesdays are such a drag... and even more so feeling under the weather..
Im taking a HOT Vinyasa class tonight with my cousin Maria; and i couldnt be more excited...
I haven't seen her in a long time; and HEAT always makes my colds go away faster.. Two for two on the thumbs up scale.
Ive been reading a lot of photography blogs lately... trying to prepare for playing photographer during my Brother-in-laws wedding. So nervous I could bite my nails off! But very very excited to discover if I have any real talent! lol Baby got me a tripod, a remote (which we haven't been able to sync) and a lens cleaner kit... She's the absolute best! Even if we end up fighting over playing with the gadgets and not helping with dinner... Marriage is funny, perplex, and wonderfully Insane.

Upon research and constant picture viewing and technique finders Ive come across this Fall 2010 30X30 thing inspired by I dont know who! but which seems like a great way to stay fashionably sane especially in this cold cold weather.. when the only sense of style you want to have is a very very thick down coat to keep u warm.
And who cares what you're wearing underneath when you have to layer so much?
Well I care, thats who! Every morning i wake up and lazily flinch at the thought of stepping foot out my door... But there are those days when I wake up and feel like wearing something funky; and sexy; and chic; and all of a sudden... excitement to step outside and show it off hits me.. and the blushing sensation I get when my gorgeous wife tells me i look beautiful is more than enough motivation to spend an extra few minutes really thinking about what to wear.
So next week starting the 20th I'm going to do my own little Remix of Winter 2010 30x30.. during which time I can only pick out 30 items from my closet (including shoes), but not including coats, scarves and gloves...since i have to adapt those to this blistering weather..
And during which time im not allowed to shop for anything new (which is why I need to start next week, since Im in desperate need of shopping for some winter gear this weekend, i.e. Jeans without holes and shirts with actual sleeves! ) Looking at my closet I realize I should really be living in a tropical area... not in NYC!

Time to save on laundry too! Ha

Thursday, December 9, 2010

Xmas Presents

Although Baby and I decided not to go crazy this xmas, and ending up financially stumped when it should be a merry not (stressful) holiday; We absolutely went all out....
And lucked out thanks to a little thing called Jack's Superstore!!! 
This place has everything u can think of; starting at .99 cents and moving its way up to $50.00 
I swear things that would normally cost you hundreds of dollars... are a measly 10-15 at jacks... from home goods; to food; to gift wrapping; to actual gifts; bikes; toys; clothing... i mean it has EVERYTHING you need!

So for less than 100 dollars we got gifts for the 9 family members we will be spending xmas with; this is including gift wrapping paper; bows; xmas cards; and voila! bundles of goodies that were perfect for each one!

I was soooo not in the xmas spirit; but it felt so great to pick out things you know fit someone's personality/ activity/ vices etc. And even better, it felt great to bond with baby because I know how important it all is to her. 

The week is coming to a close on a wonderful note; with a weekend full of music, beer, and sweat coming up. Vogue it out!

Friday, December 3, 2010

Feeling pretty darn GReat!

Its been about a month since I embarked on a mission to get toned, healthier and feel better than ever... and i must say: I feel pretty darn great!
After the holidays we were left a little lethargic; Black Friday shopping? Who does that?! We did, for the first and probably last time... 
that one night was enough to keep us in bed and feeling like death the entire rest of the weekend. Booooo! 


So needless to say we havent been to Bikram this week, or dont much of anything but walk to and from work lol...
Wait` not true,,Baby has been riding her scooter so that's been her "break a sweat" moment of the day; twice a day. Me: Well Ive been less active... Walking to the restroom a few times a day to keep up with my overactive; vitamin stimulated bladder count? Probably not... 


BUTTTTTTTT; We did undergo this Vegan transformation... And so Im feeling healthy and new and great! Today, a slight headache which im blaming on detoxing or on withdrawal or on that nasty trigger point underneath my Rhomboid muscle right at its insertion on the scap .. sending all kinds of referred pain up my neck and into my temples.... OUCH! 

But looking at myself in the mirror made me smile today. I feel lighter, although i wouldn't dare get on a scale because weight loss is not the reason for anything in my life.. so Im just winging it by how i feel... listening to my body, if you will... But it def helps to look in the mirror and say: well well well,,, we've lost a little pudge since our last  little belly photoshoot! 
So here is my gunt currently. =]





Thursday, December 2, 2010

Reflective Thursdays

As the week reaches it's climax, I wonder what little lessons I've learned.. What moments have stood out; What I need to remind myself of for the upcoming week and weekend... So here goes:

1) I reallllyyyy realllyyyyy  realllyyyyy do not want to live in NYC for much longer. 5 yr plan.... stick with it...
2) Divorce is such a painful, depressing, stressful, pitiful situation and decision.
3) Im afraid of change and of the unknown
4) I miss chanting; meditating; yoga... I have abandoned them and fallen into the routine of doing EVERYTHING with my partner.... so if she isn't up to it; i wont be either... definitely something to think about.
5) I need at least an HR to myself a day, of silence, no phone calls, emails, numbers, ppl, nothing. just ME... lunch breaks; here I come... ALONE!
6) I desperately need to buy some extra sheets; were having family over soon.
7) Tofu Cream Cheese, fake bacon and all things vegan that are made to taste like real meat, dairy and poultry are DELICIOUS! And have made this transition so much easier.


I want to feel like this right now: