How things CHANGE~

So its been almost year... Like everything else in my life; I neglected blogging. Im really good at starting things and terrible at following through and finishing them. Im almost afraid of seeing an end; even if its required... like my education. I graduated Dec of 2009. Yayyyyyy for me!!!! Five months later... May11, 2010 is when i decided to come in and get my diploma... and start filling out the paperwork for my boards exam... lol... Can you say procastination to the max?!
But im proud I finally got it done... it marks and end... and its scary. I walked in there and told the Dean of Students Meg that I missed being in that building; that i want to take their personal trianing course just to come back lol... she looked at me like i had three heads and told me she had never heard anyone say that before.
This gets to another place where im starting something new... Since i cant continue school for now for reasons beyond my control; Im setting another goal to keep me feeling active and motivated and not just a corporate monkey.
I've decided i want to be a fitness model. I spent years basically modeling my half naked body in front of hundreds in lounges and clubs and private party settings... and the attention I got was positive and rewarding and made me feel really proud of how I took care of my body. For the past three months or so being unemployed took its toll and my body is looking what i call disgusting.. for me at least. So ive started to work on rebuilding and refortifying it.... slow slow slow paced start. But at least its a start right?!
So i set a goal to be in bikini modeling shape by this time next year... And I will accomplish this goal.Maybe I wont be ready to join a competition, or maybe ill decide along the way competing is just my way of staying motivated with working out...but ill at least have a drive. No matter what bumps in the road... I will be cleaner and healthier and neater both inside and out. My muscles will be a roadmap to the perfect picture underlying inside, after all, true beauty comes from the places we cant see... not from the ones we can. So here we go... I probably wont  keep blogging about my progress... my hardships... my good times and bad.. because hello? Its been a yr since i even remembered i created this. So at some point when i decide to come back and read all the nonsense I write; Ill see what I've actually accomplished.